Monday, November 29, 2010

fresh perspective.

OK, I have been at my new job for 3 months now, and I am already in need of an attitude adjustment. I had one just the other night. (nights are killing me this time)
So, I am working with this guy and he is a messy pig. Not only does he make a mess, but he leaves it for me to clean up. GRRRRRRRRRR....Like I don't have to do it ALL at home, now I have to do it at work?!
I am so ashamed of my pettiness. blech..anyway..So I am trying not to be irritated, and I like the guy so I feel even more pressure to not be irritated. Well, I make an effort to talk to him. Yeah, I treated him like a person, instead of a messy jerk. Well, turns out I worked with his wife over 20 years ago. And guess what happened? I got a whole new perspective. I got to look at him as someone that may have flaws, but is still valuable.
That is one of the biggest lessons I KEEP needing to learn. After Sid had the stroke, he changed so much, which is where the change in me started. realizing that there is always more than what it appears. One of the things he does sometimes is act inappropriately. I KNOW he isn't really being a jerk, but noone else does. The guy he cut in front of at Costco, doesn't realize that he just wants to get through the checkout so he can get the icecream bar he so loves. I hate that I continually need to remember every one has something going on. That I want to mirror grace and mercy in my life. So I am grateful to have been given a fresh perspective.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

night shift

Start nights Monday. My new job has lots of perks. Not sure this is one of them, but I have to look for the good in everything or I will drive myself crazy. I like so much about my job. I only work 14 days a month. I make much less per hour, but take home just a little less.(it's not what you make, but what you get to keep). Tax man is missing my contribution.=]
I love that I never work more than 3 days in a row. I get to spend more time with my sweet Sid. I think it has helped him some. I work every other weekend, so I miss church on those weekends. I don't like that at all. With nights coming up, I spend my nights off watching TV, facebook, and reading. LOVE THAT. Since Sid's stroke my reading has dropped off tremendously. I am just so tired when I finally sit down with a book, I get about 2 pages read before falling asleep. I had so much to write about the other day, and got sidetracked with other stuff. Now it is not even in my head. I need to actually write it down when I think it, then blog it when I can. I am telling you it was profound..I think. yep, pretty sure it was.

Monday, November 15, 2010

"big girl panties?"

OK, I lost a couple pounds since big deal really. It was pounds that I needed to lose. So, here's my dilemma.. I went to work yesterday, and after being there about 10 minutes I realize my panties are slipping off. Yep, waaaaaayyy too big. That in itself isn't so bad. I decided to share it with a co-worker. Told her my underwear kept slipping down. Well, it never occurred to me that she would find it so funny as to share it with others. You guessed it..within 20 minutes EVERYONE knew my underwear was falling down. I started getting pieces of tape put on my station. I have to tell you, my first reaction was horror, and then I saw the humor. I also became grateful that this crew I work with felt comfortable enough with me to give me a hard time. So I attached a piece of tape to the top of my underbritches and the bottom of my shirt and formed a type of suspender. They all nearly peed their pants laughing at me. I have no idea how it looked, but it felt good to have some camaraderie. I had spent last couple years at a job feeling like a misfit. Oh, yeah..the panties went in the trash when I got home. And, 12 hours is a really long time to work in droopy drawers..LOL

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

so stinkin excited

Today is my day off. I have a different job, and I now work very different schedule.One month days, one month nights. No matter what, I work 6-6. This week I worked Monday & Tuesday, and will go back Friday and work through Sunday. Next week I will only work Wednesday & Thursday. So, I only work 14 days a month. I am home more with Sid, but I miss out on some things I love so much. The pay is much less than we are used to, but God is providing(as always). I have taken tips from others and incorporated a budget and cash only system of shopping for groceries,gas, and other "stuff". I tried doing the shopping once a month only, but it appears I will always need something in between no matter how well I plan. I have now had a small amount of money left over every month so far, so today I am going to lunch with one of my dearest friends. I am on load 2 of laundry, and am just excited to be alive..I love it when I feel like this. I am grateful to be able to enjoy the simple but oh so wonderful things in life that I spent so much time taking for granted and/or complaining about. Well, I am going to go fold some towels...YAY

Monday, November 8, 2010

some days you go to bed early

I am tired. Title says it all. got up at 4, worked from 6-6. came home, fed animals, fed us, sorted clothes I will wash tomorrow night and Wednesday, showered, and a bit of facebooking. all in all a wholelottanothinspecial ordinary day. I LOVE those kinds of days. but, now I am off to bed so I can do it all over again tomorrow..

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I am back

Well, my last post was the day before Sid went in for the other blocked carotid to be unclogged. The surgery went beyond bad and he ended up in ICU for a month, 8 days of which was on life support. It was awful,scary, and it did something to me. I have been unable to post here since. I can't explain it. I am not even going to attempt to explain at this point. Way too much has happened. He took a major step backwards as a result of the trauma he endured. I think I took a few steps backward as well. I haven't even read the blogs I used to follow and love to read. I have decided that I am done with that season and am going to reintroduce myself to this blogging world I grew to love and enjoy so much. more will be revealed..